May 25, 2024

Long story warning ⚠️ 😩😅😂… Get the tea🫖 and crumpets 😂… I normally have toast, macarons, or cookies with my tea! (Photo below) I am NOT a coffee girl at all 😩. #TeaForTheWin

So, every morning during fourth watch after I’m done with my prayers/talk with The Lord, I like to read from this little book called “Our Daily Bread”! Every day there is a different short message and then a prayer at the end. Well, today’s title is “Tell Them What God Did”! (Photo below) After reading the prayer at the end, I said at some point today I’ll write about my little faith journey, and share it on my blog. So here it goes!

Even as a kid I can remember having a relationship with The Lord. I can thank my Parents for that! Every night my parents would say their prayers with Rayme and I before we would go to sleep. And, in the morning on the way to school we would watch the daily mass. I grew up Catholic; However, for many years now I have been getting Messianic teachings ✡️✝️! I just haven’t officially converted yet, but, that’s soon to come! We would still attend catholic service as there is an option for Saturday service so that we could keep Shabbat as much as possible… and also, there is not a Messianic synagogue in New Orleans. (Rayme and I also attended Catholic school.) We would go to Dallas for Yom Kippur and I used to enjoy that so much! I mean it’s nice to be able to watch it online but being in person was a plus! I also remember when I was in middle school… in the morning before my parents would bring Rayme and I to school I would listen to Paula White while I was getting dressed. I was always drawn to hearing about the Lord and I love how she teaches!

I appreciate my parents instilling a foundation of faith in The Lord in me. Because, I know that has helped me in my little journey “back to The Lord”! It makes me think of the scripture “Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.” I say “back to The Lord” because I had in some ways drifted (like in my early twenties) away from the closeness that I once had with Him. Honestly, I used to feel like if I started reading the Bible and getting back close to The Lord I would be “missing out” and wouldn’t be able to have “fun”. I think because so many “Religious people” makes it look/seem that way. Now, granted I had to make some changes in my life… like certain shows I used to watch, I no longer watch and even certain artists I used to listen to I no longer listen to etc. But, I don’t even feel like I’m missing out on anything.

Well, long story short… Some life changes came along that had me running back to The Lord… To thank him for saving me, keeping me and never leaving me even though in ways I had “left him”. And to ask Him to forgive me and bring me back closer to him again😭… When, I started back on this little journey I made a commitment to the Lord that I would read The Bible in its entirety (not in one day of course…but over time.) that was eight years ago! I started in Proverbs and I would read at least an hour a day and stop and pick back up where I left off the next day! I still do this, and to God be the glory… I haven’t missed a day yet! (Side note: Today is a full circle moment for me because I will officially be back in the book of Proverbs tomorrow when I do my hour reading! No such thing as a coincidence when The Lord is involved! AND The Torah portion today was Leviticus 25:1-26:2 *Does happy dance because of what the reading is about!* today also marks a little memory for me… not that I would have forgotten but photo memories are nice. I’ll add my little tea snacks picture here!).

When I first started my journey back to The Lord I used to do a 24 hour fast every week… and then I was like Lord, I want more of your presence, I want to hear your audible voice! I want to press in more. Now I am a strong believer in Ephesians 2:8-10 (For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.) So I’m not saying because I was fasting the Lord moved in my life… I do believe that Biblical fasting (abstaining from food) helps us get more focus on The Lord but at the end of the day His will, will prevail! So, I started doing a 3 day liquid fast which increased to 7 days! Then, I was like okay Lord give me the strength to complete a Daniel fast (21 days… fruit, veggies and whole grains). As, I was reading the Bible I was like OMG WHAT?!?! It kept my attention and I was like I wonder what happened next??? Fast forward to literally 8 days after I hit the two years mark (I talked about the two years story in a previous blog post.) I heard the audible voice of The Lord… to this day I cannot express how in awe I was… Honestly, I still am… when I think about it. I’ll save what He said for another time but it was right after I had a very vivid dream! As I woke up from the dream I heard The Lord so clear… and I remember literally popping up and throwing the covers from off my head (I sleep with it really cold and under the covers 😩😂.) and looking around my room… I laid back on my pillow and was like OMG God spoke to me. (Tears… like I had read so many times in the Bible at that point how the Lord would speak to His people.. so I just felt unworthy in a way… but that put an unquenchable fire for The Lord in me and I was like Father, my whole heart Lord you have it!!! I want more of you Lord!!!) I was like The Lord left the 99 to come and get me! And He can and will do the same for you! If you want Him to… I have so much more to say but this is so long already! Maybe I’ll do like a “Part two” post at some point?! 🫣🤔! I really need to start doing videos 😩… I could have said all this in like 5 minutes or less!

Shabbat Shalom! ✡️✝️